He Thinks She Doesn’t Know

Title: He Thinks She Doesn’t Know
Author: Christina A.
Fandom: Stargate SG-1
Pairing: Kind of Daniel/Janet
Characters: Daniel Jackson, Janet Fraiser
Category: Angst, Drama, UST
Warning: None
Rating: PG-13
Disclaimer: I do not own Daniel Jackson nor Janet Fraiser. That honor belongs to MGM and Cooper et al.
Author’s Notes: This was written for Meesh as a Christmas present!

Summary: Daniel has a secret love.


He Thinks She Doesn’t Know
by Christina A.

He’d taken to watching her from afar. There was so much strength of character and conviction in her small frame that it drew him in like a moth to a flame. He wasn’t sure when he fell in love with Janet Fraiser, but he knew she didn’t feel the same for him.

It hurt if he sat and thought about it for too long, so he did his best to try to push it to the back of his mind. It was why he spent so many long hours working. So long as his mind was on ancient artifacts and languages, he wasn’t pinning for her.

In the end, though, it was truly hopeless. The pain in his chest would swell and he’d have to find a reason, any reason, to go to medical and see her. Most of his ‘headaches’ were just that, in his head. It got him to her, though, and it didn’t really matter to him that she was concerned about his higher-than-average number of headaches.

A part of his mind continually told him how pathetic and juvenile he was. His ‘accidental’ run-ins with her at the commissary sparked several of their lunches together, and he did well to hide his disappointment when Sam, Jack, or Teal’c would join them. When they were alone, he could pretend that she was his.

Yeah. Daniel redefined pathetic.

He just couldn’t let go. No matter how hard he tried or what he did to try to fill the void, it didn’t work. He would continue to run into her at lunch or in the corridor. He couldn’t let it, or her, go.

It was his love for her that drove him to the jewelry store to purchase the necklace for her. He chose a white gold chain with a small diamond pendant. The necklace reminded him of her. The diamond looked petite, but it was very strong. Just like Janet.

It was his fear of rejection, though, that led him to slip into her office when she wasn’t there and leave it on her desk. He left a card with a simple note in it as well… ‘From someone who loves you. Merry Christmas.’ He slipped back out of her office, as quickly and quietly as he came in, knowing now that the only way he would find out if she liked it was if she brought it up at lunch. It was, however, a price he was willing to pay. He couldn’t tell her and risk losing her as a friend.

*-*-*

She found the small package on her desk and immediately knew it was from him. Her hands, that were normally so steady and sure, shook slightly as she opened the package and saw the necklace contained within.

They shook even more as one came up to cover her mouth. She had to sit down or she was sure she would have fallen. It was the card, though, that caused the normally strong woman to allow a tear to slip down her cheek.

She wasn’t sure why he wouldn’t tell her how he felt. More than likely, it was fear of rejection and loss of friendship. She’d struggled for so long to make sure that he didn’t know that she knew. Perhaps she’d been too good at it. Obviously, he believed that she didn’t return his feelings.

That just wasn’t true.

She slipped the necklace around her neck. She had hoped that he would tell her, but maybe it was time that she took the first step. Her hand rested on the necklace and she knew, for both of their benefits, this had to come out in the open. She could do it.

After all…

She loved him too.

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